one I'm still figuring out!
I LOOOOOOOOOVE to clean, love the look of clean, the smell of clean and the act of clean...something to do with the perfectionist in me and the OCD tendencies I have maybe? Or maybe I'm just a bit weird, ha like we didn't already know that. Vaccuming is a de-stressor, especially when kids are driving me nuts. K is scared so will sit on the couch and watch and I snap B into the baby sling and away we go making perfect lines and sucking away all the dirt and ickiness that accumulates on the floor....well little ickiness since we do NOT wear shoes in my house, ever and yes I will make you take them off at the door :)
I also love to craft, working on my side business www.etsy.com/shop/fantasticframes2 yep I opened one up after a little shove from a good friend. I've donated a few of them and hope that will drum up more business. If nothing else they are fun to make and give me my creative outlet.
I love to shower, my shortest managed shower is 8 minutes and that was the worst, typically I spend 20-25 mins under the water and yes I know I'm a terrible environmentalist but it's my one escape from the day and my love of peace and quiet with the water running down my back...I get lots of thinking done in there!
I love spending time with my kids, dancing, playing on the floor, building blocks, doing art, cooking, running around outside, etc, etc, etc.
I love to blog when my thoughts are in working order...
I have to do homework
I have to pay bills
I have to take care of the dog
I have to make breakfast, lunch and dinner
I like to watch TV at night...
So how does it all fit in the day? When is it okay for a messy house to well just be messy, at this point my kitchen may be a little beyond that and it's giving me anxiety every time I look at it...but B is asleep and I can't clean in there when he's sleeping since he it's a light sleeper. Its the daily question of showering while baby sleeps or playing with and giving K individual time...although lately since she's somewhat a trouble maker we combine and she comes into the bathroom and we chat or she reads me a story.
It's a balancing act and somedays I'm much too heavy on one side and light on the other, I doubt I'll ever figure this thing called parenting to a perfect balance but I'm not sure that's even possible...at least in my world! But we're having a heck of a ride while we're here and as long as we go to warm beds with full bellies and smiles on our faces I think we'll make it though!
A blog of my rambling mind, gives me something to do and you something to read.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
What's your number?
This question seems to be a constant asked in the parenting world, like once you take the leap of one child how many more do you dare to have?
People women always say they "know" when they are done, I was one of those but due to recent changes I've began to wonder about it and this subject of "knowing".
My first child was not what they call a planned baby, but met with absolute joy and love. We ummed and ahhed and discussed number two, agreed, didn't agree...but always said two kids would be great for our family.
Bambino number 2 arrivedthis last year, wow already, and I spent the whole pregnancy accepting and being comfortable with that I was done and we were complete. I was iffy during the pregancy but when he arrived felt like okay cool we're good, family of 4 sounds right, two kids, two hands, we're good.
Until...
My husband has recently been contemplating a 3rd and heaven forbid a 4th for our family. He's decided he wants a crew...okay he said 5 kids and I told him no way in a hot place was that happening.
But since he's been talking about it, I've kind of become excited...like wow I think 3, maybe even 4 kids would be really fun! Not right now, mr. no sleep has to get his butt in order first, but maybe in another year, a bigger family could be great. I think my title as Mummy is one I own well, I'm nowhere near the perfect parent but I really love staying home with my kids and just being Mummy.
But wait, I was done, I felt that huh I feel good with two kids and our family is done no need for more kids, factory closed feeling.
Making me question this whole "oh no my family is done" concept. I mean are we really ever done? As a friend recently said, I've never heard of anyone say they regret having another child. So is our heart ever done? Obviously sensibility comes into play, finances make a difference, size of the home, patience level, health capabilities, etc but are those what tell us we're done as opposed to our heart? Do we just convince ourselves our heart is done to avoid that tug? Or does it really go away?
Did I just convince myself we were done because in reality we had agreed we were? So I was making my heart be okay with the decision instead of listening to it?
I wonder if those who say they are done and happy would be sad to have another child today...
So I'm curious if those who are done for whatever reason feel like it's a heart choice or a mind choice or a combination of both? I guess I'll revisit this post in a few years and see if my thoughts have changed!
My first child was not what they call a planned baby, but met with absolute joy and love. We ummed and ahhed and discussed number two, agreed, didn't agree...but always said two kids would be great for our family.
Bambino number 2 arrived
Until...
My husband has recently been contemplating a 3rd and heaven forbid a 4th for our family. He's decided he wants a crew...okay he said 5 kids and I told him no way in a hot place was that happening.
But since he's been talking about it, I've kind of become excited...like wow I think 3, maybe even 4 kids would be really fun! Not right now, mr. no sleep has to get his butt in order first, but maybe in another year, a bigger family could be great. I think my title as Mummy is one I own well, I'm nowhere near the perfect parent but I really love staying home with my kids and just being Mummy.
But wait, I was done, I felt that huh I feel good with two kids and our family is done no need for more kids, factory closed feeling.
Making me question this whole "oh no my family is done" concept. I mean are we really ever done? As a friend recently said, I've never heard of anyone say they regret having another child. So is our heart ever done? Obviously sensibility comes into play, finances make a difference, size of the home, patience level, health capabilities, etc but are those what tell us we're done as opposed to our heart? Do we just convince ourselves our heart is done to avoid that tug? Or does it really go away?
Did I just convince myself we were done because in reality we had agreed we were? So I was making my heart be okay with the decision instead of listening to it?
I wonder if those who say they are done and happy would be sad to have another child today...
So I'm curious if those who are done for whatever reason feel like it's a heart choice or a mind choice or a combination of both? I guess I'll revisit this post in a few years and see if my thoughts have changed!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Ever walk into a room...
and go crud what did I come in here for?
Happens to me all the time, just happened as I came to my blog site. I had a great topic in mind, TV is on, Facebook is open and well ADHD kicked in and now I've got nothing but a topic about nothing :P
At the moment I'm dealing with the frustration of DVD region codes. WHY do they do it? I don't get it. But every region and I believe there are 5...don't quote me on that...has as different way of coding their DVDs and DVD players. The US is region 1.
We received an awesome gift card from my aunt and uncle for Christmas to the amazon UK website, I knew about the codes but found the manual to my 7 year old DVD/VHS player that said I could change the region coding and play anything, fantastic right? So I ordered 18 new DVDs for the kids. They arrived. I plugged in the player and nothing, nada, zilch...the dang thing is dunzo!
Sigh
So we schlepped to Best Buy in the rain today, talked to the guys in the DVD dept. who told me we could not use anything sold in the store, but the PS3 which is way out of the current budget and even then he only knew we could play foreign games. Found another guy who told me the last one they sold that was capable of that was over a year ago, luck have it they had one in the "open box" aisle, SCORE! No remote but the Phillips machine that died had one so I was told I could use the old remote, awesome right? Wrong...drove home, plugged it in, stupid remote died along with the old machine.
Sigh
Back to the drawing board...so I checked online and found a few hacker code websites offering ways to un-code the DVD player allowing it to play all regions. Awesome. So back we went to Best Buy to return the Phillips and pick up just a regular DVD/Blu Ray player they had on the "open box" shelf for a great price. Brought that one home and it doesn't work.
Double Sigh
Maybe I should have bought books!
B and I will head back to the store Wednesday while K's in her science enrichment class and try for a 3rd time, 3rd times a charm right? it has to eventually work out...Thankfully I've only opened one DVD so if all else fails we may just return them.
Today was Monday!
Happens to me all the time, just happened as I came to my blog site. I had a great topic in mind, TV is on, Facebook is open and well ADHD kicked in and now I've got nothing but a topic about nothing :P
At the moment I'm dealing with the frustration of DVD region codes. WHY do they do it? I don't get it. But every region and I believe there are 5...don't quote me on that...has as different way of coding their DVDs and DVD players. The US is region 1.
We received an awesome gift card from my aunt and uncle for Christmas to the amazon UK website, I knew about the codes but found the manual to my 7 year old DVD/VHS player that said I could change the region coding and play anything, fantastic right? So I ordered 18 new DVDs for the kids. They arrived. I plugged in the player and nothing, nada, zilch...the dang thing is dunzo!
Sigh
So we schlepped to Best Buy in the rain today, talked to the guys in the DVD dept. who told me we could not use anything sold in the store, but the PS3 which is way out of the current budget and even then he only knew we could play foreign games. Found another guy who told me the last one they sold that was capable of that was over a year ago, luck have it they had one in the "open box" aisle, SCORE! No remote but the Phillips machine that died had one so I was told I could use the old remote, awesome right? Wrong...drove home, plugged it in, stupid remote died along with the old machine.
Sigh
Back to the drawing board...so I checked online and found a few hacker code websites offering ways to un-code the DVD player allowing it to play all regions. Awesome. So back we went to Best Buy to return the Phillips and pick up just a regular DVD/Blu Ray player they had on the "open box" shelf for a great price. Brought that one home and it doesn't work.
Double Sigh
Maybe I should have bought books!
B and I will head back to the store Wednesday while K's in her science enrichment class and try for a 3rd time, 3rd times a charm right? it has to eventually work out...Thankfully I've only opened one DVD so if all else fails we may just return them.
Today was Monday!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Behind
I hate the feeling of being behind, behind in housework, behind in getting a deal from the store, behind in blogging, behind in homework...behind.
Being behind makes it so much harder to catch up. Where to start, how to get on top of things or even better ahead of things.
So I guess a brief catch up is in order?
We're settled in our new home, a few boxes remain in the basement hiding in the corner where I pretend if I ignore them they'll go away, so far it's not working...
I recently got hit by a mack truck, not literally but figuratively...I developed mastitis and it knocked me out for a day and a bit, starting to feel better.
We've found a church, finally, it's not as amazing as the one we left in Opelika but it's a great place and we're finding our way around slowly...I got lost once but there were plenty of people to help me find the way out! Yes it's a large church.
I've lost 6 pounds in 3 weeks and feeling great about it! I have quite a ways to go but I'm on a good start and hope to keep this up!
I opened my own business, not feeling super confident about it but I love making the frames and enjoy it so if nothing else it's a fun hobby for a little while :)
www.etsy.com/shop/fantasticframes2
Project 365 is going well, made it almost through the month (2 days to go) without hesitation, I'm learning more about my camera and hope to improve the quality of photos as I move forward!
Oh and I'm LOVING e-mealz! Have you tried it? Checked into it? Click the link on my site (I get a referral bonus) and check it out. It's cut our food budget down and food I buy actually gets used, so no more throwing bad veggies out or questioning meat! Plus meals are planned 5 days a week, so come 4pm I don't stand in the kitchen going hmmm what on earth should we do for dinner! oh and they are delicious...like the cajun shrimp and rice we had tonight! delish :)
Kids are phenomenal as usual, turning my hair grey and my smile lines deeper!
We're getting REAL internet soon so I will be back with a vengence complete with pictures! Right now I use the mobile hot spot on my cell phone and since the service stinks in this house the connection speed is S.L.O.W as molassess making uploading pictures on this site near impossible!
Being behind makes it so much harder to catch up. Where to start, how to get on top of things or even better ahead of things.
So I guess a brief catch up is in order?
We're settled in our new home, a few boxes remain in the basement hiding in the corner where I pretend if I ignore them they'll go away, so far it's not working...
I recently got hit by a mack truck, not literally but figuratively...I developed mastitis and it knocked me out for a day and a bit, starting to feel better.
We've found a church, finally, it's not as amazing as the one we left in Opelika but it's a great place and we're finding our way around slowly...I got lost once but there were plenty of people to help me find the way out! Yes it's a large church.
I've lost 6 pounds in 3 weeks and feeling great about it! I have quite a ways to go but I'm on a good start and hope to keep this up!
I opened my own business, not feeling super confident about it but I love making the frames and enjoy it so if nothing else it's a fun hobby for a little while :)
www.etsy.com/shop/fantasticframes2
Project 365 is going well, made it almost through the month (2 days to go) without hesitation, I'm learning more about my camera and hope to improve the quality of photos as I move forward!
Oh and I'm LOVING e-mealz! Have you tried it? Checked into it? Click the link on my site (I get a referral bonus) and check it out. It's cut our food budget down and food I buy actually gets used, so no more throwing bad veggies out or questioning meat! Plus meals are planned 5 days a week, so come 4pm I don't stand in the kitchen going hmmm what on earth should we do for dinner! oh and they are delicious...like the cajun shrimp and rice we had tonight! delish :)
Kids are phenomenal as usual, turning my hair grey and my smile lines deeper!
We're getting REAL internet soon so I will be back with a vengence complete with pictures! Right now I use the mobile hot spot on my cell phone and since the service stinks in this house the connection speed is S.L.O.W as molassess making uploading pictures on this site near impossible!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Why I struggle...
I've contemplated this post for awhile and letting the world (lol or the few readers I have) about what goes on in my head daily, but I've decided that this is a real life stuggle and nothing to be embarrassed about, it's not something I can control or chose to have, I was born this way, born with a brain that works in different ways...
Senior Year as part of our English requirement we had to write a research paper, 20 pages, 10 sources, big stuff for high school...it was followed up with a 15 minute presentation in infront of the class. It ended up being super interesting to hear what every wrote about, it could be anything! I picked palmistry, but that's not what this post is about.
A classmate, Sam, picked his disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, aka ADHD. I remember listening, reading over his check list of 'do you have ADHD' marking every.single.one yes and sitting there kind of numb, having a few flashbacks over the years of sitting in the corner, being in trouble for talking, struggling with tests, never remembering what I read, having issues with control, not being able to finish a task, perfection, etc, etc, etc.
Freshman year in college the struggle became worse and I reached out to have an evaluation done...about 8 hours of testing...with a confirmed diagnosis of ADHD.
So an answer to questions but now what? where do I go from there? so my brain works differently, what does that mean?
It means life is not as easy for me as it is for most others, that when I want to sit down and read a book or write in my blog or listen to a story I have to prepare...it takes me a longer time, outside noises are a big distraction and messes have to be cleaned up. Basically anything and everything is a distraction. If I'm not interested in the topic it's even worse.
I was on addreall XR 30 mg twice a day to help me focus, with pretty yuck side affects, as I was coming off the meds I had headaches, it made me jittery and well bathroom wasn't fun but I could focus better and my tests improved, homework was easier to get done and the weight loss side affect wasn't too bad either!
But I was basically on speed, twice a day...not something I wanted to do for the rest of my life.
So now I struggle, I self medicate with caffiene which while nursing is the only thing I can take anyway, I've learned little tricks on how to pay attention and I accept that this is my world and I'm the only one that can make it better.
My ADHD offers many barriers, it causes strain on all my relationships and it makes me worry for my kids.
Lately it seems to be hindering me more than in the past and I cannot pin point why, but I'm re-vamping my blog as an outlet to discuss my struggles as a Mum of two with ADHD and how I battle the world differently!
I hope you'll stick around to read some more of my rambling mind and how it affects world!
Senior Year as part of our English requirement we had to write a research paper, 20 pages, 10 sources, big stuff for high school...it was followed up with a 15 minute presentation in infront of the class. It ended up being super interesting to hear what every wrote about, it could be anything! I picked palmistry, but that's not what this post is about.
A classmate, Sam, picked his disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, aka ADHD. I remember listening, reading over his check list of 'do you have ADHD' marking every.single.one yes and sitting there kind of numb, having a few flashbacks over the years of sitting in the corner, being in trouble for talking, struggling with tests, never remembering what I read, having issues with control, not being able to finish a task, perfection, etc, etc, etc.
Freshman year in college the struggle became worse and I reached out to have an evaluation done...about 8 hours of testing...with a confirmed diagnosis of ADHD.
So an answer to questions but now what? where do I go from there? so my brain works differently, what does that mean?
It means life is not as easy for me as it is for most others, that when I want to sit down and read a book or write in my blog or listen to a story I have to prepare...it takes me a longer time, outside noises are a big distraction and messes have to be cleaned up. Basically anything and everything is a distraction. If I'm not interested in the topic it's even worse.
I was on addreall XR 30 mg twice a day to help me focus, with pretty yuck side affects, as I was coming off the meds I had headaches, it made me jittery and well bathroom wasn't fun but I could focus better and my tests improved, homework was easier to get done and the weight loss side affect wasn't too bad either!
But I was basically on speed, twice a day...not something I wanted to do for the rest of my life.
So now I struggle, I self medicate with caffiene which while nursing is the only thing I can take anyway, I've learned little tricks on how to pay attention and I accept that this is my world and I'm the only one that can make it better.
My ADHD offers many barriers, it causes strain on all my relationships and it makes me worry for my kids.
Lately it seems to be hindering me more than in the past and I cannot pin point why, but I'm re-vamping my blog as an outlet to discuss my struggles as a Mum of two with ADHD and how I battle the world differently!
I hope you'll stick around to read some more of my rambling mind and how it affects world!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
holding my head above water...
barely...kind of drowing over here...
sigh
the blog is suffering and I'm bummed.
My 8 month old is on a sleep strike and my 3 year old thinks she's 16.
My husband is working 65-80hr weeks, with a training class on Saturdays or contracts out of town.
Housework is a bare minimum, school work has to be done, couponing is going well and weight loss is underway...
I promise I'm going to be back and have plans to re-vamp my blog, changes are a coming!
Thanks for reading and sticking around!
Oh and Amanda won the movie and yes it's still sitting on the table to go to the post office, but it will go out next week I've signed the16 3 yr old old up for an art class so I have 2 hrs to get stuff done!
xoxo
sigh
the blog is suffering and I'm bummed.
My 8 month old is on a sleep strike and my 3 year old thinks she's 16.
My husband is working 65-80hr weeks, with a training class on Saturdays or contracts out of town.
Housework is a bare minimum, school work has to be done, couponing is going well and weight loss is underway...
I promise I'm going to be back and have plans to re-vamp my blog, changes are a coming!
Thanks for reading and sticking around!
Oh and Amanda won the movie and yes it's still sitting on the table to go to the post office, but it will go out next week I've signed the
xoxo
Saturday, January 15, 2011
An AMAZING referral...
My friend posted this on facebook today and so I checked it out, she later called me and we talked about how awesome it sounds! She was on her way to the grocery store to check it out!
Here's the deal, this website e-mealz offers weekly meal plans, cool right...well it GETS BETTER!
Not only do they have different plans, so family of 4-6 or just 2 people, they have different stores walmart, kroger, publix, etc. You can determine where you like to shop and how many people you have to cook for, we picked 2 people since our other 2 people don't eat much. No more standing in front of the fridge at 4pm going crap what are we having for dinner tonight, or spending time scouring recipe books or recipe websites to come up with a meal. Even better no more searching cupboards for anything that sounds good together...It's all done for you!!
Keep reading...
It tells you what ingredients to buy, the recipe to use AND the prices and where to find the items in the store PLUS coupons. All in a PDF file to print out weekly and take with you to the store, then save the recipes for weekends.
They promise to keep you under a budget, for the 2 people menu its $35-$45 a week, bigger family meals its $75 a week.
They also have fat-free, vegeterian, etc, etc, etc.
AND
it's a mere $1.25 a week...or $15 every 3 months...
What are you waiting for? Go check it out, sign up and tell me how much you love it!
I did today, the menu is easy foods, yummy, healthy and stuff my kids AND husband will eat!!
Okay really I'm not endorsed by these people, and upon re-reading I kind of sound like a marketing gimmick, but I'm just super excited about this, just $5 a month that will save me $$ and time...i'm so excited to try it out!!
Here's the deal, this website e-mealz offers weekly meal plans, cool right...well it GETS BETTER!
Not only do they have different plans, so family of 4-6 or just 2 people, they have different stores walmart, kroger, publix, etc. You can determine where you like to shop and how many people you have to cook for, we picked 2 people since our other 2 people don't eat much. No more standing in front of the fridge at 4pm going crap what are we having for dinner tonight, or spending time scouring recipe books or recipe websites to come up with a meal. Even better no more searching cupboards for anything that sounds good together...It's all done for you!!
Keep reading...
It tells you what ingredients to buy, the recipe to use AND the prices and where to find the items in the store PLUS coupons. All in a PDF file to print out weekly and take with you to the store, then save the recipes for weekends.
They promise to keep you under a budget, for the 2 people menu its $35-$45 a week, bigger family meals its $75 a week.
They also have fat-free, vegeterian, etc, etc, etc.
AND
it's a mere $1.25 a week...or $15 every 3 months...
What are you waiting for? Go check it out, sign up and tell me how much you love it!
I did today, the menu is easy foods, yummy, healthy and stuff my kids AND husband will eat!!
Okay really I'm not endorsed by these people, and upon re-reading I kind of sound like a marketing gimmick, but I'm just super excited about this, just $5 a month that will save me $$ and time...i'm so excited to try it out!!
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